Apollo D Loose (apolloose)

Roxanne:

I would love for you to know ALL the people praying for you. Tonight, the doctor did a real operation on you. You have lots of tubes hanging out of either side, and some going in, too. You are hooked up to a PCA, to control your own pain medication, and for the first time I actually heard you say "7" on your pain scale of 1 to 10. Keep sleeping, all of your angels are watching over you.

It was a long day, and tomorrow will be better. Love You Soooo much.

Ellie and Sedona are with your Mom taking care of the house, and probaly watched Dancing with the Stars, tonight on TV. Sedona enjoyed BBQ Chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn. Ellie had a fun ride to dance class in the convertible with the top down.  Wishing there was more to say, but I just want to watch you sleep. 

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Everyone,

Thanks for stopping by my blog. I don't post here too often. Mainly, because its generic thre is no point to my ramblings sometimes. And, here I have no filter. But, since Febuary 1st my wife has been diagnosed with Colon Cancer.

At first I felt like a real shithead, because she was showing symptoms last summer. Yet, we had no health insurance. When, I did get some it turned out to be CUT RATE, and I only recently found out the carrier is involved in Class Action Lawsuits in other states (Fucki Me, eh?). But, it is enough insurance to get her some care, and she really needed it. Hence, the reason I feel like a jerk for putting it off for 6+ months.

Anyway,  the doctor in early February knew it was Colon Cancer. right away! By February 15th she had a CT Scan, and Chemo and Radiation consultations. We were pretty sure it would be similar to a family member that had the same situation a few years ago.

 But, this was different - there was an ultrasound that showed it was not going to be STAGE 3 Cancer only stage 1, Praise God! Surgery was scheduled for last Wednesday, and we were ready. Let's fix her and get on with it. The operation went well, but the hospital stay was pretty rough. Roxanne is a trooper, She wanted to get home. After staying an extra day, she got home on Sunday with her pain pills. But, Sunday Night she did not sleep well. AND this morning (Monday, March 19, 2012) she was in PAIN. 

After having choice words for the medical staff, but more controlling my  OWN ANGER that I had for every little thing around me. I had to get some sleep. (I worked 3rd Shift, and had not slept over a day)

Well, I just got the call at 6:30PM - she is going into surgery, she is really scared, I am dropping Ellie off with Oma and heading to the hospital. This really sucks! I wanna hold it together, but these doctors better have some answers ready or it will be another LOOOOONG night! 

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A good way to vote I am told is to ask yourself, "Are you better off now than you were before?" Well, I can give you a resounding NOPE. After losing my job in 2009, collecting unemployment for almost a year, and now I am working for $10,000 dollars less a year. I know I am in a real tight spot financially. Politics had nothing to do with it, unless you can find a way to force them to find me a better job. There are still NONE out there, I am always looking, eh?

 But, nothing is going to make me vote REPUBLICAN. After, the IOWA Caucus I fid it quite hilarious that the goals of the next election have been changed to get "Obama out of Office."

Unfortunately for the REPUBLICANS -  I actually listened in school. The government has three branches. AND, most importantly which some people seem to forget, the President doesn't make the LAWS?!?! My wish for 2012, is a return for Democratic control of Congress.

The mid terms in 2010 seemed to show us that Congress has failed and miserably. The JOBS bill dead, balanced budgets, pffffft. And, finally a repeal of the Health Care Bill was money wasted, eh? Please, start now - vote DEMOCRAT. And fix the problem locally, call your Senators & Representatives in Congress - put them on NOTICE for 2012!!! 

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My World is not your world, but it is worth sharing it with you all the same. Praying works, living in the NOW works, and being greatful works, too. One day at a time, is easy to do when the day's are this good.

I guess if I was tweeting it woulda looked like this.

• Off work early
• The wife was still awake :-O
• The grocery shopping was done
• Sleep in, no alarm clock
• Cinnamon Pop-Tarts
• Mow the lawn
• Shower
• Birthday Party - Lobster
• Jump in the pool
• Meet the parents
• Fine Dining - Steak
• Plop down in front the TV - History Channel, Archer, Louie, and the Three Amigos

 Then, while watching "Louie" with Louis C.K. I realized TODAY (7-30-2011) was a win for me. His character is 42, divorced, and always the pessimist. He seems to me to be a glass-half-empty-comic, I get his humor because it seems so close to the parallels I see in my own life. He has taken stand-up-philosophy in a great direction. The sh-tuff he says is great!!!

BUT I always see my self as a glass-half-full-comic. A HAPPY CHRISTIAN, enjoying the ride, spreading the good news, and trying to make good choices. Of course I smoke, swear too much, and yell at my kids... Hey, we all have our faults, and that is the kinda sh-tuff I have to worry about, not others. 

 I usually work 3rd shift, so for me to stay up till 2AM is no real stretch. I will get a nap tomorrow during the Brickyard 400. I think I am going to have another good day, because that's what I want to do.

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